I know it has been sometime since I’ve posted any blogs on here. With everything that is going on in the world right now it is hard to find time to clear my mind, and post something that it from the heart. If you’ve been following my blogs for awhile now, you know everything I post comes from my feelings. If I’m not feeling right, then I’m not going to post anything. Just want to always be 100% honest with those who view my blogs, which I thank those who have been with me since I started my blog almost 2 years ago now.
To those who always wondered why I started to blog here’s why. I was 20 years old at the time, and I had just gotten out of a 2 year relationship that looking back at it now it was just very toxic. My ex had cheated on me not only once but twice, and both times I decided to take him back because I believed people can change if given the chance to change. Obviously now I don’t exactly believe that anymore, but y’all get the gist of it. I was just a young 18 year old at the start of that relationship that thought I was going to be with him forever, and at some point all of us have gone through that. When we ended things, he still wanted to be friends, and as much as I wanted that in that moment I knew it wasn’t a good idea. As anyone else would do I blocked him on everything, and told myself I needed to distract myself from that pain I was feeling.
So there I am at work sitting at my desk, with nothing to do, it was a super slow day, and I decided to google “hobbies to help get over heartbreak”. Some of the things on the list were cloud watching, collecting, painting, and yoga. Which by the way I do love yoga, and I actually do paint so if y’all are ever interested in seeing some of the things I’ve painted please comment and I will post some of my paintings in another blog. But back to the story, one of the things that caught my attention was actually photography at first, so I gave that a shot and it honestly only lasted a week or so for me. The other one that had caught my attention was Blogging. Another fact about me is I’ve been writing a book for the last 4 years that I have yet to even get close to finishing, and I don’t even think I’m half way through with it.
Writing is what helps my mind relax, and escape from all the troubles I’m dealing with. Now I know that’s what everyone says typically if they decide to be a blogger, but it’s the truth. If you ever take the time to write down how you’re feeling, and after you’re done whatever was bothering you to begin with is no longer an issue. Blogging is my escape. I’ve met really great people on here, we email here and there about blogs or help each other out. The blogging community is like a huge family. When I first started to blog I didn’t care how many followers I got, or how many likes I got on my posts. If you didn’t know this but we can see from our side how many people viewed our posts, and seeing even one person viewing my post would make me extremely happy. I’m very grateful for even the little things in life because I just always aim to be happy as much as I can everyday because you never know what could happen.
I’m still young. I got so much to learn. I got a lot to experience still. I’m just happy that I have people that support me, I’ve made friends on here as well which I didn’t expect to happen. I’ve even inspired people to blog just from them reading my blogs, do you know how mind blowing that is to me? When they told me that I was just so shocked and thankful at the same time. Because of those I’ve inspired, that is why I believe I should only put my blogs out there with my true feeling, not just type up something quickly to post, and hope I keep my followers that I currently have. That’s just not the way to blog at all.
I know I have said this many times before on my blog but yes I am officially back from my break on the blog. I’m sorry to those who have been waiting for me to post something, just know I’m always available through email, and I try to respond to those as fast as I can.
Also one last thing, I wanted to give a nickname to my followers, so if you have any suggestions let me know in the comments or email me whatever works for you.
Once again thank you for all the support.
~ Marisa Rae