Recently I had talked to the person who is still important to me even  though I may not be important to them anymore. I know I won’t get that side of him anymore that was super sweet, and so warm towards me. It’s honestly super weird to me for us to talk as if we never knew each other, like if we hadn’t spend all that time with him, yes I did disappear on him because I knew it would be better for me to accept what he wants so that I wouldn’t continue to have this hope we would get back together.

I know I lost an incredible guy. I truly know I did, and I’m still accepting that. My mind still doesn’t want to believe that this is the reality I have to live with for now on. He said it wasn’t my fault at all, we weren’t working anymore, but although he told me that I still feel like it’s partly my fault as it is his as well.

Of course I’ll miss him, and the memories we’ve made together but like I’ve said before now they’re just events that happened in the past that I won’t experience again with him. I do have my moments throughout the day, not so much as night which is surprising. I don’t know why it’s hitting me more today than it has any other day, maybe talking to him yesterday is what stirred up my emotions like this.

With time I know I’ll be stronger, and who knows maybe I won’t think of him as much or not at all anymore as time goes on. As long as I continue to have the support from my friends and family that I currently have I know I can do this.