Isn’t it a strange thing to get your mind to understand when someone you thought you knew could show such an ugly side to them. What’s stranger is that part of you will always miss that person no matter what they may do, or how they act. I know he’s not considering my feelings anymore, because he got what he wanted, and I’m still trying to wrap my head around all this.

With recent events I can’t believe how ugly someone you loved so much can turn so bitter the moment you mean nothing to them anymore. It’s sad that my heart still aches because of him, maybe not as long as it did a week ago but I still wish to not feel the way I do ever again yet my mind keeps doing this to me.

Looking back at my first post on here ever I can feel that sadness through my writing, and with my current self I can see the improvements I’ve made the past 2 weeks. Like I’ve always said, it’s okay to not be okay.