Recently I have lost a dear friend of mine from high school. He unfortunately overdosed while taking medicine for his anxiety.  I never really talk about my personal life much at all, especially on here because my blogs are meant to help those who are struggling. 

My friend struggled since our freshman year of high school, I met him in biology that year. You know how we all have that huge fear growing up like clowns or something, well I was always terrified of Chucky, that killer doll, and to this day it freaks me out. The first thing I ever told my friend was, “Your ginger hair reminds me of Chucky, and that really freaks me out.” , and he responded with ” Well you’ll just have to deal with it because we’re going to be friends.”. 

So friends we were. Going into Sophomore year he started to get addicted to different substances, and eventually moved schools. Our Senior year he went to rehab, and when he got out he moved to a different state. I’ve kept in touch with him over these years as well, we wouldn’t talk everyday, and sometimes we’d even go months without talking even but when we would chat again it’d be like we’re picking up from where we left off. 

 The last conversation I had with him was on November 30th, 2018. I personally discovered I have some anxiety issues that I’ve been taking care of, and so I talked to him about that. Man, he gave such great advice, and he gave me tips on how to deal with it. After talking about that we were just talking about life, and he was telling me how happy he is. 

December 7th, 2018 my friend took his last breath. I didn’t find out about it till December 9th. You never know when life can stop all of a sudden, and we’re still so young. We’re only young adults still learning about life, but now my friend won’t be able to continue learning with me and our other friends. 

There are people who care. Seek out help, and don’t ever think you aren’t worthy of love or life. I know I have my dark moments, and as hard as it is to get out of it I’m still doing my best so that I don’t sink low. No one said it’d ever be easy but it’ll heal you. 

Addiction Treatment Hotline : (866)236-0845 

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: (800)273-8255 

Safe Helpline: (877)995-5274