All I can say to you over and over is, I hate you.

I hate the person I have become ever since you decided to enter my life again on me. I was doing so well without having you in my life. So why did you decide to appear again?

It’s as if I can’t have anything good in my life for long. My life was going so well for me, yes I had a lot of stress and you would come into my nights every so often. Why is it now that you also come to me in the daylight as well now? This isn’t fair.

All I want is to feel like I’m normal. Like everyone else around me, I want to go on with my day with no worries.

Maybe I won’t ever be able to experience that myself.

Everyone around me now has to be worried about me, and be worried on what I might do if no one is around me. Like if they have to baby sit me.

Anxiety can start from things you have no control over. I know my triggers of anxiety I can’t do anything about it.

But I do pray that soon i’ll be back to my normal self.

~Marisa Rae

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