I know it has been quite a few years since I’ve posted anything on here. I’m not even sure if my old viewers still use this app, or if I’ll attract new viewers.
So much has happened over the last few years since COVID-19 started. But, the biggest change in my life was… I became a mother!
I’m also married now which is definitely a huge blessing as well. But yes y’all, in 2022 I became a mom to a beautiful little girl. Hopefully this post reaches at least one of my OG viewers because it would be so nice to catch up with some of my viewers that I got when I started blogging almost 6 years ago now I believe.
Don’t forget I still have my email address linked under the “contact me” tab and please don’t be afraid to send an email. To this day I still check my emails more often than I do text messages.
Old viewers, new viewers whoever you are please write to me and I will write back to you as well.
I just wanted to come on here real quick to make this little post to get this page going again.
All I can say to you over and over is, I hate you.
I hate the person I have become ever since you decided to enter my life again on me. I was doing so well without having you in my life. So why did you decide to appear again?
It’s as if I can’t have anything good in my life for long. My life was going so well for me, yes I had a lot of stress and you would come into my nights every so often. Why is it now that you also come to me in the daylight as well now? This isn’t fair.
All I want is to feel like I’m normal. Like everyone else around me, I want to go on with my day with no worries.
Maybe I won’t ever be able to experience that myself.
Everyone around me now has to be worried about me, and be worried on what I might do if no one is around me. Like if they have to baby sit me.
Anxiety can start from things you have no control over. I know my triggers of anxiety I can’t do anything about it.
But I do pray that soon i’ll be back to my normal self.
Even now as I’m writing this blog, I’m crying. It’s weird how feelings like this can manifest from a person that seems happy during the day. But, when nightfalls, a whole new person comes out.
Why do I let these emotions control me?
Why don’t I talk about how I’m feelings to those around me?
Because I’m scared.
Scared to accept the fact I’m not happy with myself as a person right now.
That is why I suffer in silence. I have anxiety and panic attacks mostly when night falls. There are times where I’m in the bathroom crying, and I don’t even know why I cry but I just do it. Crying makes me feel a little better. My sleep schedule has been so horrible lately, not even taking sleeping aids help.
If only there was a way to take these feelings away from me for good. I hate making those around me worried.
Writing is once again my only escape from this haunting feeling in my chest. I would never wish this type of feelings to my worst enemy.
This stuff happening constantly is just so draining to my body, and with everything happening still in the world, being home all the time doesn’t help how I feel at all.
I know I need to stop being so scared. It’s just easier said than done.
I know it has been sometime since I’ve posted any blogs on here. With everything that is going on in the world right now it is hard to find time to clear my mind, and post something that it from the heart. If you’ve been following my blogs for awhile now, you know everything I post comes from my feelings. If I’m not feeling right, then I’m not going to post anything. Just want to always be 100% honest with those who view my blogs, which I thank those who have been with me since I started my blog almost 2 years ago now.
To those who always wondered why I started to blog here’s why. I was 20 years old at the time, and I had just gotten out of a 2 year relationship that looking back at it now it was just very toxic. My ex had cheated on me not only once but twice, and both times I decided to take him back because I believed people can change if given the chance to change. Obviously now I don’t exactly believe that anymore, but y’all get the gist of it. I was just a young 18 year old at the start of that relationship that thought I was going to be with him forever, and at some point all of us have gone through that. When we ended things, he still wanted to be friends, and as much as I wanted that in that moment I knew it wasn’t a good idea. As anyone else would do I blocked him on everything, and told myself I needed to distract myself from that pain I was feeling.
So there I am at work sitting at my desk, with nothing to do, it was a super slow day, and I decided to google “hobbies to help get over heartbreak”. Some of the things on the list were cloud watching, collecting, painting, and yoga. Which by the way I do love yoga, and I actually do paint so if y’all are ever interested in seeing some of the things I’ve painted please comment and I will post some of my paintings in another blog. But back to the story, one of the things that caught my attention was actually photography at first, so I gave that a shot and it honestly only lasted a week or so for me. The other one that had caught my attention was Blogging. Another fact about me is I’ve been writing a book for the last 4 years that I have yet to even get close to finishing, and I don’t even think I’m half way through with it.
Writing is what helps my mind relax, and escape from all the troubles I’m dealing with. Now I know that’s what everyone says typically if they decide to be a blogger, but it’s the truth. If you ever take the time to write down how you’re feeling, and after you’re done whatever was bothering you to begin with is no longer an issue. Blogging is my escape. I’ve met really great people on here, we email here and there about blogs or help each other out. The blogging community is like a huge family. When I first started to blog I didn’t care how many followers I got, or how many likes I got on my posts. If you didn’t know this but we can see from our side how many people viewed our posts, and seeing even one person viewing my post would make me extremely happy. I’m very grateful for even the little things in life because I just always aim to be happy as much as I can everyday because you never know what could happen.
I’m still young. I got so much to learn. I got a lot to experience still. I’m just happy that I have people that support me, I’ve made friends on here as well which I didn’t expect to happen. I’ve even inspired people to blog just from them reading my blogs, do you know how mind blowing that is to me? When they told me that I was just so shocked and thankful at the same time. Because of those I’ve inspired, that is why I believe I should only put my blogs out there with my true feeling, not just type up something quickly to post, and hope I keep my followers that I currently have. That’s just not the way to blog at all.
I know I have said this many times before on my blog but yes I am officially back from my break on the blog. I’m sorry to those who have been waiting for me to post something, just know I’m always available through email, and I try to respond to those as fast as I can.
Also one last thing, I wanted to give a nickname to my followers, so if you have any suggestions let me know in the comments or email me whatever works for you.
Instead of bringing people down, we should be helping them rise up. If they can not rely on themselves, they can at least rely on us. We are all here to support each other, and there are times when someone in our lives really just need someone by there side to remind them of the self worth they have. Because sometimes we all get a little lost. Our society plays a huge role on empowering each other, there are many people in the world who tend to give up, or they compare themselves to someone which is something I’m also guilty of. As hard as it is, you must always remind yourself of the worth you have, and never forget that the people you surround yourself with will never leave your side. People come, and go, But, the ones who stay are the ones you want to keep with you, because when you start to feel down, they will be there to empower you to be a better image of who you are now. And that is the best thing someone that close to you can ever do. My dear fellow blogger friend Lilia, who also gives very powerful messages with each of her blogs had something to say about this topic as well,
“You empower yourself by empowering others”
“We are all born from the same soil, made from the same water, birthed on the same planet, and share the same unique experience of life. We are born under the same sky, the same sun, the same moon. We are all worthy of living this life given to us. Whoever says that there isn’t enough room for every one of us to shine is simply ignorant. There is enough room for us all, there always has been and always will be. We have two hands for a reason, one for helping ourselves and the second for helping others. Blowing someone else’s candle doesn’t make yours glow any brighter, therefore why not fix another queens crown if you have the chance to? We rise by lifting others. People think they are better than other people. But in the end, we are all people. A person who walks with his head raised high and his pride to the sky, is the same as the person who shyly hides behind the corner. An example to prove so? They both run as fast as they can when it rains, head to the ground, not wanting to get soaked while looking for shelter. It’s funny how even the universe doesn’t like these kinds of people. The beauty of empowering others is that your own power is not diminished in the process. And always remember that “how you make others feel about themselves says a lot about you.” -Lilia
Please be sure to check out Lilia’s blog, P O W E R F U L, you won’t regret following her blog and you will get a lot of good advice off of her posts.
As you have read from the title, I have recently felt what it means to be used. It gives you a tight feeling in your chest that just makes you start to feel sick, and it takes awhile for it to even start to fade off. If I start thinking about it too much it gives me a little anxiety, but I have to remind myself that the person that used me doesn’t even care, I’m not even a thought in their mind right now.
After venting to my friends about the situation, including my blog friend I’ve made on here (@thesimplypowerful.com) although I try not to hate anyone nor do I encourage anyone to hate anybody at all unless it’s for good reasoning. But this situation, I can’t help but feel a type of anger towards this person. I have been able to come to terms with these feelings I now carry, and that’s okay because I know I didn’t do anything wrong therefore I have the right to feel this way.
You should never let someone make you feel less than what you are, they don’t know you, only you knows YOU. It has taken a lot of thinking mentally for me to able to sum up my feeling, but after getting all that out the way I view this as a lesson learned, and I can only hope I never go through a situation like this again, but that’s just life. You live, you learn.
Also, don’t let the feeling of being used make you feel stupid, you had no control over what was going to happen, and no one can tell the future. Never let someone that doesn’t even have a huge part in your life affect you like they have been around you for years.
Today’s blog we will have a feature from the author of P O W E R F U L by Lilia. I am very excited for this blog for it is the first one I’ve done with another blogger on this site. Please make sure to check out her blog as well, and give her a follow, her writing will literally brighten your day.
The topic today is about loving your body for who you are, and not what you’re not. Society today has different age groups become stress over things they shouldn’t be worrying about at their age. Especially when it is young teens trying to diet, or they automatically feel as if they look hideous if they have one small pimple appear on their face. Because of this, body shaming has become a huge topic all around the world, along side with bullying, and it can be from online bullying to bullying someone in person.
I wanted Lilia to be featured in this blog specifically because we both have similar writing styles, and her messages get straight to the point just as I try to do as well. The next part of the blog will be from Lilia herself;
“Body image is how a person views his/her body and how he/she feels about it. Our body loves us and works hard everyday to keep us alive, so why can’t we love it back? It’s okay to not have the perfect body. What is it about perfection that makes us want it so bad that we can’t be happy without it? Can anyone even define perfection? Imperfections are beautiful and we should embrace them. Beauty starts the moment you start to love yourself and embrace who you are. Comparing ourselves to unrealistic “model” body goals is just sad, absurd and unhealthy. Don’t compare yourselves to an Instagram model’s feed, and don’t forget that nothing is like how it is displayed on social media. Love your body, love your mind and love Yourself. And never forget that everything becomes beautiful once we stop looking for flaws. -Lilia xxx”
Personally myself I always had issues with acne since I was a young kid, and just until a few months ago is when I started to get more comfortable with my skin, along with my body. Nothing will be perfect, and just as Lilia said our views shift so dramatically once we stop looking for flaws. Every single individual is beautiful in their own way, and that’s something unique about us all.
Thank you to one of my best friends Lauren for sending this topic suggestion, and please feel free to e-mail me more topic ideas if you have any.
I know today is Valentine’s Day, the day of love. But with some events that have happened I don’t care for this day much at all. So instead of being the Anti-Valentine this blog post will be to my ex who I don’t know if he will even see this post at all but I’ll still post it.
Dear you,
Thanks to you I was able to experience many great memories but with those great me memories also came bad ones. You made me feel so many emotions all at once I couldn’t breathe at times. When I looked at your eyes I felt safe, when I laid my head on you I knew you loved me because I would hear your heart skip beats. I don’t know what happened to us, and it has already been months since our separation. But, sometimes I find myself wondering if what happened was actually reality, and I’d think it’s really weird knowing we aren’t together anymore. You broke me, and yes I’m still putting myself slowly back together, but that’s the only thing I hate you for. Your promises to me, none were kept, you left, but took parts of me with you.
I’m glad you’ve been able to move past everything, and I’ll be happy for you but just from a distance.
And I hope you have a Happy Valentine’s Day.
To everyone who reads my posts I’m very thankful for the support you constantly give me, and all the emails you send to me I’m truly grateful for every single one of you.
Hello everyone, and sorry for the little break I took from blogging.
Everyone deals with this one emotion in particular, more than we would like to, and that is called STRESS.
Have you ever cried over homework? Or even get a bad headache over stress? Been there done that way too many times than I’d like to admit myself. I wish stress just didn’t exist period, but that’s just another part of how we express our emotions as humans. Did you know the right amount of stress can be beneficial, but too much can be deadly, why? Because too much stress can make your brain cells grow at a much slower pace than it normally should, and also it can affect your immune system. Of course stress is also associated with depression, and anxiety.
Not trying to scare anyone, but this is just another reason why we should take care of our bodies! We only ever get one body, and honestly researching new stuff to do like exercises, or finding new hobbies is a great way to let some stress off of your body and helping your immune system get back into normal function.
Take me for example, I take breaks (which you all already know I’ve taken a few) and it’s okay to step back for a breather every once in awhile. I’ve been looking up painting classes cause that’s my other hobby besides blogging, and I want to get better at it but also it’s a great stress reliever for me .
Your health will always be number 1, and when you start taking care of yourself more than you normally would you will notice the change not only on your body but your face because the face is like the beginning chapter of a book you started reading. Your body will thank you.
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