Deep Affection

Meeting people is something everyone does. But, coming across that person that is just different from anyone else that you have ever met, not everyone can do that.

Anyone can make you feel emotions but it takes one special person to really bring more out from you than just those feelings alone. They bring out the real you at the same time, no one should ever feel like they have to hide how they really are around their significant other. Be around the one that makes you forget the suffering you’ve been through, the one who brings sunshine on your most cloudy days.

People like that don’t come around everyday, and if you’re able to find that person early on in life, you’re very lucky because for some they may have to wait years until they finally meet that person.

If they make you feel some sort of way that you’ve never felt before, that’s Deep Affection. A strong, beautiful feeling but also can be terrifying. Feelings can get stronger as time goes on, and it becomes so strong you don’t know exactly how to handle it. You’re not the only one who would feel how strong they are because I’m sure the other person will feel the same way as you do. Together the two of you can carry the weight of those feelings. Attachment can happen, but don’t fret away from it. Let what you feel take over because it won’t do you any wrong, only good will come out of it.

Follow what your heart and mind tell you to do. Nobody else has the right on how you should live your life, that’s something only you can do for yourself.

Look back at the memories you’ve with this special someone, don’t you want to make even more memories with them?

~Marisa Rae

Feeling Broken

We have times in our lives where everything seems to be going downhill for us, and none of it was how we expected things to go. As much as we all wish for everything we do in life to be right or to never make mistakes, as humans that’s just how life is. Making mistakes, and learning from them.

Have you ever gone through an experience that just made you feel like absolute trash? I know I have, and more times than I would like to admit to myself. For me I wasn’t able to accept the healing process from those experiences for the longest time, and as time went on I felt myself start to feel less happy as the days went by. Healing takes time. Pain is only temporary. Then why does my pain not feel temporary? Why is my own healing not happening yet? I always asked myself those questions at the point where I was just tired of feeling the way I did.

One day I woke up to realize I wasn’t depressed, I just felt broken. But was it a bad thing? No.

Our minds work differently just as our bodies do, everyday we all feel different emotions, deal with different situations than someone right next to us. People around us right now could be dealing with something, and we wouldn’t know because we aren’t them. I believe going through such hard times doesn’t make a person weak, it motivates them to better themselves and not let this pain affect them. If you’re currently dealing with anything at all right now as you’re reading this, just remember we’ve all been through it, maybe not at the same time as you, but we have at one point in our lives. Don’t let that pain make you feel any less than what you are, that was my first mistake when I felt that for the first time, I let that pain bring me down instead of learning from it.

So do me a favor, talk to people you love about your pain, and tell them why you feel that way. You may not want to tell anyone how you’re feeling but don’t worry, no one will judge you, and no matter what they will always be by your side. Send a text to a loved one, and just let them know how much you love them, I know that will brighten up their day. Even if someone may seem fine, ask them if they’re okay. We have to start letting those around us be well aware they can come to us for anything at all. Family, and friends are what guide you to the path of healing. Don’t be afraid to lean on them for comfort.

Each step we take in life, is a step to a better future. We can all make it to that future, but please don’t give up on your dreams. Follow them through, I know life isn’t easy one bit but as long as you can find the will to believe in yourselves good things are bound to happen.

Feeling broken doesn’t mean you’ll never be happy again, you’re only growing tougher skin for the next challenge life throws in our path.

~Marisa Rae

Emotions

It’s interesting how our emotions have such a tremendous part in our everyday lives. How they change so fast, or how they grow more in depth. One day you can love someone, and once something happens, that love you once felt melts into anger, sadness, or even hatred.

There are times I find myself just trying to control these emotions, because I admit I can’t always control them, and I know there are many others out there like me who struggle with this. When emotions get to a certain point, they scatter everywhere, making your mind feel fuzzy, confusing you, and even gives you a little anxiety because you don’t know why it hot you so suddenly.

I’ve had moments where I can be either working, or in class, and my mind blanks out on me. Or I could be hanging out with friends, laughing with them, then the next moment I just want to be locked up in my bedroom to be alone. People have made fun of me for this stuff, but then later on have told me they are the exact same way, they just don’t like to talk about it or making fun of it like they did to me was there way of not thinking about it.

Someone can tell you to ignore it, or don’t pay attention to it. But, it’s your own emotions, it’s a part of you, ignoring them will only make you turn your back on bettering yourself. Nothing in life will ever be easy, but that’s not an excuse to not try.

Learn your emotions, embrace how they work, and adjust to them. Learn to control them even in the slightest bit.

~Marisa Rae

Dealing with Stress

Hello everyone, and sorry for the little break I took from blogging.

Everyone deals with this one emotion in particular, more than we would like to, and that is called STRESS.

Have you ever cried over homework? Or even get a bad headache over stress? Been there done that way too many times than I’d like to admit myself. I wish stress just didn’t exist period, but that’s just another part of how we express our emotions as humans. Did you know the right amount of stress can be beneficial, but too much can be deadly, why? Because too much stress can make your brain cells grow at a much slower pace than it normally should, and also it can affect your immune system. Of course stress is also associated with depression, and anxiety.

Not trying to scare anyone, but this is just another reason why we should take care of our bodies! We only ever get one body, and honestly researching new stuff to do like exercises, or finding new hobbies is a great way to let some stress off of your body and helping your immune system get back into normal function.

Take me for example, I take breaks (which you all already know I’ve taken a few) and it’s okay to step back for a breather every once in awhile. I’ve been looking up painting classes cause that’s my other hobby besides blogging, and I want to get better at it but also it’s a great stress reliever for me .

Your health will always be number 1, and when you start taking care of yourself more than you normally would you will notice the change not only on your body but your face because the face is like the beginning chapter of a book you started reading. Your body will thank you.

~ Marisa Rae

High School

When I was in middle school I was so excited to head into high school finally, because it meant I would be closer to graduating and go into the real world. Everyone in my family always told me to enjoy every memory I make in high school.

But my first two years of high school were a nightmare for me, I got made fun of a lot, I just didn’t fit in with the team I was in, and so I decided to leave it by the time it was my third year in high school. No, I wasn’t running away from my problems, I was just getting rid of them, and honestly leaving that team of mine and joining a whole new school activity was the best choice I ever made during my time in high school.

Unfortunately for me I never enjoyed high school from day one exactly, but I eventually did start to enjoy it. I was still growing up, and although there was a lot of issues my first two years at that school I knew I would eventually enjoy some part of school. It’s going on 3 years since I graduated, and what my family told me back then still stays in my mind because I do catch myself having that nostalgic feeling when I have some time to relax.

There are parts in my memory where I think of what I could’ve done in the moment to make the situation better for me. But that’s life, now I’ve learned from those incidents, and now being a young adult I’m taking those lessons with me. If you can get through your teenage years, remember all the lessons you learned during those years, and bringing them with you into your 20’s it is a huge guidance tool that I believe everyone should use.

Because honestly as much as we wish to be grown up already, being an adult can be scary. Enjoy being a kid or teen while it lasts for you, and make as many memories as possible.

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Step By Step…

It’s okay to not be okay during these times. Take a step back, breathe and start to look at the bigger picture. Sometimes you have to think of the bad times you and this person had, maybe then it’ll help you start accepting a lot faster.

Once things have settled in you start to accept.

Try not to let yourself think back on the good times, instead start thinking of what you can improve on. Make a bucket list, set goals for yourself, and slowly start accomplishing day by day. As much as we all would love to, we can’t heal fast at all. Our minds need time to process the events that happened especially if it was so sudden, and it’s good to give our minds that time to do so because if not then we’ll just hurt ourselves more than we need to.

Trust me, it’s normal to wonder about that person, what they’re doing right now, who they’re talking to, and if they’re thinking about you. I believe personally one day I will be friends with the person I lost because we didn’t end on bad terms at all. But, if you are someone who is opposite of that then take a break from social media, don’t talk to that person for awhile or ever again, and that’s good advice for everyone going through this. I’m taking time away from all of that myself currently because it’s just easier on my mind.

Step by step this is something we can conquer, and at the end you’ll feel like a better individual.

“Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck.”

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~Dalai Lama

Self Love

Getting to know me:

Hello,

My name is Marisa Rae, and I’m a 20 year old nursing student.

I decided to make a blog as a way of guiding myself down the path of healing, and also help others who may need the guidance as well.

Everything in life happens for a reason, and although we may not understand why such a thing has happened to us weather it’s positive or negative eventually we will gradually start to understand. For myself currently, I do have my moments throughout the day, along with at night. I feel like I’m at my lowest point right now, but I also know eventually I can look at myself in the mirror and say “I’ll be ok”. Yes, I cry and it’s not a small amount of crying either. I learned it’s best to let all those feelings sink in rather then trying to not acknowledge them because once you are able to understand those feelings, and why you feel the way you do only then you can start your healing process. I admit I haven’t started my own process just yet but I am getting there one step at a time. But just know you’re never alone, and don’t ever think you’re not loved or you have no worth because I know you do. You have so many people who will always love, support you in life, and yes you may have recently lost someone special to you but don’t let that affect you mentally at all. We are all human. Please do not lose faith in yourself, we can get through it together one step at a time.